Thursday, September 24, 2009

a monologue of cliches

In life you learn. You learn the simple stuff like two wrongs don't make a right, the grass is never really greener on the other side and that the best person to do the job well is yourself. But then there's the deeper stuff too that you learn when you find yourself back in that same dark place. Like that life really does go on, things aren't as bad as they seem and there's always tomorrow. Learn to draw a line underneath the things you need to forget and leave them behind because if you let them infect your future then you will become enslaved to your past. And we know, your past does not define you. You learn about others, the world and yourself. Others- you may never get them to understand your point of view. Their philosophies are always going to clash with yours somewhere down the line. And all you can do is silently accept their hypocrisies.Be careful with your pedestals, always review who's sitting there and why. Aspire to be like them but don't lose sight of yourself in the process. As for the world, you learn it can be cruel and tough but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger for sure and sometimes the best thing to do is jump on the bandwagon and see where it takes you. Life is a rollercoaster so maybe it's time to start enjoying the ride. As for yourself, there's no end to what you can discover. You can take advice, you can obey orders and you can copy others but still you learn of your personal reaction in a given situation. It may take so long to learn, you wonder how many times you will fall only to find your feet again. But eventually, piece by piece, the picture is fitted together and you can use your self knowledge to be a better person. But it is a process, Rome wasn't built in a day. Slowly you begin to learn where you go when the going gets tough. But it'll all be ok in the end, if it's not yet ok then it's not yet the end. Learn from your mistakes but know that what's in the past can be left there. Live life to the full and accept any day could be your last. Enjoy the good things and try to minimise regrets. You're only young once and life's too short to dwell on troubles, these troubles are only momentary anyway. Look ahead at your future, the world's your oyster. Take a mile with every inch you're given and reap the rewards. Noone knows what the future holds but it's as good as you make it. Live with an openness to second chances, accept the failures of others so that they may come to accept yours. Value friendships and believe you are worth enough to be part of them. Make sure your life is revolving around something deeper than the superficial and something more reliable than yourself. when people let you down don't take it as a personal failure. Be in the know, ignorance is never bliss, it's just absence of fear. Know yourself, know others and know the world. If at first you don't succeed, keep trying. Your potential is boundless. There are no limits to what you can achieve. It's ok to be alone. It's ok to be together. No time spent doing what you want to do is wasted time so make sure you are doing what you want. Try new things- nothing ventured, nothing gained. If you fall flat on your face at least you'll be able to lay down for a rest. Never underestimate the power of friendships, love and hope. Keep the faith and live it out- be the change you want to see in the world. It's ok to smile when you're happy and cry when you're sad but be wary of crying when you're happy or smiling when you're sad. Emotions are fragile and easily confused. Protect the things you need to protect. Don't be scared to go cold turkey. Even when you don't remember a time you weren't trying to give it up, it doesn't mean that one day it won't finally leave. When there's rock bottom, 10 miles of crap and then you, remember that things can only get better, you're not the first and you won't be the last. Don't forget the people who have carried you this far. One day you may carry another the same way. Take comfort in the fact that nothing in all of heaven and earth is impossible. Possibilities are endless and bountiful.You may just be a drop in the ocean but that drop could be the source of life to a dying fish. Never underestimate your importance. All's well that ends well so work towards a ceremonious ending which will polish off all the troubles of the journey.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

words of widsom from mother teresa

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self centred; forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish , ulterior motives; be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway. If you find happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow, do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway."
~mother teresa

Monday, September 21, 2009

how flippin amazing are God's promises!!!

Made with mine and Jessica's own fair hands.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Saturday, September 12, 2009

rebelling against my scottish roots... literally

So, two bottles of hair dye, £5 of conditioner and a third of my hair later and I am no longer ginger. Here are some totally poser shots to show the evidence of our labour.

And, because so many people have asked me recently, here is my natural colour, or at least what i think is my natural colour but the more i look back at old photos, the more convinced i am becoming that i've always been gingery and just never realised because i've never had un-dyed hair...

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

a banana on the wall

A few random items to share whilst I dissolve my teeth with 2 litres of diet coke.


2) I have taken a couple of hours to type out my testimony:
please read, it is pretty long but hopefully worth the read.

3) I found this amazing personality test website.
Some of the highlights of my personal appraisal:

"You do have a romantic streak, fi , however it plays tug-of-war with your down to earth view of life. You make friends easily, however to become a personal or close friend of yours can take a very long time. This is because relationships are important to you so you like to take your time. You are very wary of sharing much of yourself with those who have not been tried and tested. You are a truly very private person. Your perfect partner would be someone considerate, with patience who talks about things that interest you. You're a born counsellor fi who spends many a happy hour hearing others' tales of woe- you also offer sound advice though. You are non-confrontational. You don't like being late and will apologise profusely. Fi is a good mediator. Being in a team that gives fi little opportunity to use facilitation skills would be a real waste of talents. Fi Sweeney has the great gift of being willing to respond to the needs of others."

4) I've forgotten number 3 so until i remember i will fill this space with the short and sweet anecdote that i walked past a banana sitting on the wall earlier. True story.

5) A song I wrote for Jade:

My Blessed Best Friend

there's something about the way you are
you're my beautiful superstar
in my darkest night for me you lit a light
and when i couldn't, you kept shining bright

you're my blessed best friend
and i'll love you til the end
when i thought i wouldn't make it through
God blessed me with you

when you need some sunshine to guide your way
let me help you and i'll hide the grey
i'll hold your hand like those days you held mine
with hope and faith restored together we'll shine

to count the smiles and the times we were happy
we'd be riding on infinity
grapes and chocolate, coffee and tea
talking all night, swimming in the sea
you and me
you and me
you and me
you and me

Monday, September 07, 2009

with a little help from my friends

Having lived in Sheffield now for a year, I have made a poor show in my peak visiting record. Yesterday was my first trip to the peaks, and on that note, my first trip to anywhere even similar to the peaks. With that context, I went along in my usual skirt and pumps only to discover this is not the best attire for trekking through mud and climbing rocks. And despite not being a fan of heights I climbed the above rocks thanks to Chris and Christine's encouragement and Christine's pushing. And I have officiallt done something this summer I have never done before in my life.